Showing posts with label DEPRESSION. Show all posts
Showing posts with label DEPRESSION. Show all posts

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Hi ya'll, I have been gettinge a lot of emails/post from my fins trying to find the show. I have enclosed some of the providers that caryy my show in your areas. You can also scroll down and put in your zip code to find the show:

Hi ya'll,  I have been gettinge a lot of emails/post  from my fins trying to find the show.  I have enclosed some of the providers that caryy my show in your areas.  You can also scroll down and put in your zip code to find the  show:


YOU CAN CATCH STYLE ON YOUR DISH NETWORK 
CHANNEL  115
AND
COMCAST
TIME WARNER CABLE
DIRECTTV
CHARTER


ANAMETRICS CABLE
CANTERBURY WOODS
INTERTECH PRIVATE CABLE INC
VERIZON FIOS
MADISON PARK APARTMENTS
MDU COMMUNICATIONS
NYU-TV
RCN
AT&T U-VERSE
PREFERRED ENTERTAINMENT
BRIGHT HOUSE NETWORKS
TVMAX
COX COMMUNICATIONS
PENN VIDEO
GRANDE COMMUNICATIONS
NEXHORIZON COMMUNICATIONS
AMERICABLE INTEMATIONAL INC
SOUTHWESTERN BELL
BRIGHT HOUSE NETWORKS
GRANDE COMMUNICATIONS
INSIGHT COMMUNICATIONS
WOW
OHIO STATE UNIVERSITY UNITS
PAVILION CROSSINGS APARTMENTS
TELCO
LINDSEY COMMUNICATIONS







Tuesday, November 23, 2010

My Journey so far


Ruby Reflects on Her Journey So Far

Ruby Gettinger
Note: This week's episode featured the songs "Everything" by Rob Blackledge and "Gotta Figure This Out" by Erin McCarley.
Hi, y'all! Thanks for watching the season finale this week.
The weight loss camp was amazing, and the kids I met there were too. I loved their spirit! But it was a HUGE reminder to me that society does not accept us. These children have the most beautiful souls and so much love to give. People will never know what they are missing out on by refusing to look beyond someone's shell. I pray all of us can change this starting today, and the first person we need to fix is ourselves.
When I started out on this journey, I never imagined that all that has happened was even possible. God has blessed me every step of the way with all of y'all! I always believed there were more good people in this world than bad, and the support y'all have shown me confirms that.
Y'all have truly been on this journey with me. You saw me go cold turkey from junk food to Ourlife Fresh, and you witnessed how I went from hating it—so much that I felt like I was being punished—to loving it! You've watched me with my family and friends and at Women's Fat Night. (I love my girls!) Y'all have seen my ex-boyfriend Dennycome back  into my life. You've seen me go up and down on the scales and have been there with me in my darkest hours, when I lost my hero, my Daddy, and also my rebel and baby, Lucy.
Everything I do for the first time, y'all do with me; everything I find out, good or bad, so do you. You watched the first time I ever saw a therapist and you saw me ultimately walk out on him. You watched me start off exercising in a chair and walking five minutes and saw me progress to boxing, dancing and more with my new trainers, Drew and Shazia. You watched me walk my first 5k. You watched the first time I played tennis, watched me swim across a pool, sit behind a steering wheel, go camping, fishing, ride a bike, kayak, ride a horse. OH! And let's not forget going to see the Christmas Doctor, Dr. Moses.
I need so badly to tell everyone of y'all who have supported, believed, prayed, emailed and rooted for me: Your messages in the Ruby community and on Facebook, MySpace and Twitter mean everything, and I could neverhave gone as far as I have without each and every one of you! You truly are on this journey with me, even those of you who are fighting a different beast. We come from all sizes, ages, nationalities, colors and backgrounds, and I am honored to call you my friends. I love you and pray for you daily!
For me, losing all this weight is unlocking a person who has always dreamed—and finally letting her live her dreams.
I have always been happy and lived my life, no matter how much I weighed, whether society accepted me or not. I have enjoyed my life and have laughed more than most and always believed in the impossible. I just could never figure out why my weight was so much bigger than me. I could never figure out how in the world it had such control over me. I always felt like I was in a cage. But my cage was decorated so pretty...for some reason I couldn't come out! The cage was always locked by the beast, and every time the beast would leave the door unlocked I would open it slowly and start to come out, only to have the beast come out of nowhere and push me back in. But now I am finding out I always had the key; so what does that mean?
Sometimes a 30-minute show isn't long enough to convey all that is happening with me, and I'm hoping to fill in some gaps by opening up my diary for y'all; it comes out this Tuesday! (But you can preorder it now.) There is a lot about me that y'all still don't know, and I want to share those parts of my life with you! I found I can get through some really tough times without turning to food. In my diary, I share with you a letter I wrote my dad after I lost him. I talk about my babies, Foxy and Lucy…and of course I never knew I would lose one so soon. My older brother Clyde got sick, but instead of turning to food for comfort, I turned to God, friends, family and, of course, my diary.
I've been desperately trying to recover the missing years of my childhood. I have finally recovered my first memory, and I describe it in my diary. The memory came at the oddest time! It really gave me hope that my walls could finally be breaking down. I also share a recurring nightmare I had throughout my childhood, and how I am looking into it.
I want you to know I will reach my goal and my God-given destiny—thanks, in part, to all of you! I believe in ME and YOU! Please fight with me and never give up and let's make our IMPOSSIBLE...POSSIBLE! I know we can!
P.S.: I made a special slideshow to look back at my journey so far and to pay tribute to those of you who I've met along the way.  Click here to watch!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

MY FINALE AND FINDING HOPE


Ruby on Finales and Finding Hope by RUBY GETTINGER

Ruby
Hi, y'all!
It is the finale for the first season, and yes, I will let you follow along my journey till the end. Can you believe it? In seven months, I have lost 104 pounds! That averages out to be about 14 pounds a month; that is 1 pound every two to three days. YAY! I am hacky wacky about it. I still have over 200 pounds more to lose! WOW!
But I am determined to win for me and you! It is the hardest battle of my life. But this is the battle for my life. For the first time, I really got it! I really got it that this was killing—and will kill—me. It is not only about the weight, y'all, it's what having 10 to 100, to 200, to 300 extra pounds will do to you. The scary thing to me, even knowing this, is that I have to fight to beat this. This is an addiction!
Addiction is a dependence on a behavior or substance that a person is powerless to stop. The term has been partially replaced by the word dependence for substance abuse. Dependence is the state of relying on or being controlled by someone or something else. Substance is the most important element in any existence; the characteristic and essential components of anything; the main part.
Yes, Ruby has been doing her homework. LOL! Y'all, for the first time in my life, I am having to look at the mental part as to why I got as high as 716 pounds. And why, in my adult life, I have never made it below 350. I am facing the BEAST!
I find it strange how fearful I am of the beast. I feel he is always out to get me, that he is in hiding and will appear when I least expect him to. In the past when he appeared, I didn't know until it was too late. He has disguises on. He comes in love and beauty, and I am blindsided. Then, when I know it's him and I defend myself, I lose. Why? I do not know yet. Is it because he is much stronger and bigger than me, or is it that I get tired? I do not know yet, but I am going to find out.
There has been a lot of dispute over whether or not obesity is a disease. I do not know yet, because I am only at the beginning of my journey. That is something I want to know and find out. People have their opinions on this matter, and I have to say, I see both views.
The meaning of disease: A pathological condition of a part, organ or system of an organism resulting from various causes, such as infection, genetic defect or environmental stress, and characterized by an identifiable group of signs or symptoms. A condition or tendency, as of society, regarded as abnormal and harmful.
I do know this for a fact: Whatever this is, it's not as simple as, "Just go on a diet and lose weight." It is bigger than that! If it were that simple, I would have won a long time ago. I do know eating wrong and having extra weight on your body will kill you mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally. Our frames were only meant to carry a certain amount of weight. If my knees, back, legs and shoulders could talk, they would be telling me off. Trust me: We are doing so much damage to our joints, heart, kidneys, etc.
How can our minds allow us to do this? Isn't it crazy that our bodies, minds, emotions and hearts are all one, but they are constantly battling against one another? I still do not get it all, because I am still at the beginning of my journey. This has been part one of the journey. We are about to start part two…
Click here for more finale thoughts from Ruby!

MY THOUGHTS ON FAITH


Ruby's Thoughts on Faith  by RUBY GETTINGER

Ruby
Tonight's episode was about disappointment, and struggling and wanting to believe and trust in someone and finding the faith to believe in yourself. It's about finding the faith to believe there is something bigger out there than all of us.
My personal belief is that there is a God. I truly believe in God. In my young-adult life, I went out searching for the truth. I didn't want to believe in God just because my mom believed, and I didn't want to love God just because my family and friends loved Him. I felt I was not being honest. So, I wanted to make sure I believed and loved Him with all of my heart, soul and mind. The Word says, "When you search for Me with all your heart, soul and mind, then you will find Me." [Deuteronomy 4:29] And that's exactly what happened.
I receive a lot of emails asking about my religion and religious people. I agree that some are way too judgmental! I think sometimes when some people get religious, they use it as a platform to judge others and point their finger, when that finger needs to do a U-turn right back at them.
Personally, for me, I believe in God and the Bible. I am disturbed because some people make God look so bad when they judge people so harshly. My God says, “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?" [Matthew 7:1-3]
"Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these." [John 13:34-35] I would never want someone to judge and condemn me. Would you? We have no idea what another person is going through or what brought them to their today; we have never traveled down their road. People would look at me and call me a gluttoner. When the truth is, I am not.
We are all unique human beings who grew up with parents, without parents, single parents, siblings, teachers, etc. Every one of these people put their mark on us. Good or bad! Now it's time to put our mark on ourselves. It's time to believe in ourselves, even if we can't find one other person who will. You be that person who believes in you. Find the strength. Dig deep inside and find what all of us have: the will to survive. It's in all of us!
Remember your passion and climb your mountain until you reach the top. Fight your beast during the entire climb, and when you can't fight from exhaustion...sit, rest and wait and then climb again.
God is for us! We can beat this, we will beat this, we all will stand together and beat this.
Imagine what it will feel like when you climb the top of your mountain. When I reach my goal, I want to go to the highest mountain and yell, "I did it! I really did it! Oh my gosh! I did it!" and then to look at you and FINALLY be able to say, and know, "YOU CAN DO IT!!!!" Imagine the feeling of climbing the biggest mountain and at the top of your mountain is FREEDOM!!!

THE STORY SO FAR


Love from Ruby: The Story So Far


Click to hear Ruby talk about her struggle to get from 700+ pounds to where she is today.